Let’s talk about life if you’ve got time to spare.
Well, to think of it, I am lost somewhere in life.
My life has never been happening
or exciting but in the last few years,
I really want to escape from myself.
But, I have not given up on the
“New Year Resolution” thing.
Like everybody, I choose the biggest possible
realistic lie and say that I would try to turn it
into a truth in the coming years.
This year I went with the lie –
“I would try to stop living in the past & start afresh
with my life trying to live in the present.”
But it happened the exact opposite in my Life.
That’s the thing with the past,
The more you try to push them away,
the harder they strike your face.
This time, it did it in a way that
I was not even able to process it at first,
whether it is a dream or a reality.
Alongside sucking at the resolution that I made
All of a sudden I started forgetting good things,
I’ve learned in the last few years.
I was back to the point where I started.
I started ignoring some of the people
that I used to care about a few years back.
I started reading novels and watching
random web series every night that
I’ve been postponing for months just to
minimize my connection with the people.
I started going to the gym in the morning
and the park in the evening
to distract my brain from the thoughts
only to end up running in the boundaries
like a lunatic who keeps running
aimlessly lost in his own thoughts.
The peculiar nature of the coding language that
I’ve been learning, added up to the confusion.
I tried hard to throw the past away and till now,
It has not come back except for a few glances.
I’m just moving with the flow with
the strange things happening around me.
I have not been able to sleep,
imagine and write properly too.
I miss writing long write-ups that make sense
I guess it’s the fear that I would end up writing
something worse that doesn’t make sense to any
Or is it the confusion in my mind
that is making it hard to focus? I really don’t know.
I think now I give a lot of importance
to people telling me something important
because the day my grandmother died,
a day before she wanted to talk to me.
I still wonder what she might have said.
I still remember the stories she used to tell me.
I believe her teachings had an impact on me.
Though, I knew she was growing old,
I didn’t realize that she will leave me.
I hope she is in a better place now.
I feel like motivating others because
there is no point in life where you feel
like quitting as I dream about tomorrow
where pretty thoughts are in my mind.
Apart from that, life has been going fine
since the last month. I met a few close people.
The word “close” kind of feels ironic here
because I met most of them for the first time.
But yeah, all of them add up to make
this instance of the time period beautiful.
I miss my home though sometimes.
Except that everything else feels fine as of now.
I miss talking to people though.
Nothing in life comes the way you want.
So, here I am talking to you in the middle of night,
telling you what’s been going on in my life.
Enough about me! Let’s talk about you.
Tell me what’s been going on in your life?
All those problems, and the happy stuff too.
Promise, I would listen carefully.
I forgot the moment when we last conversed.
Let’s talk about the wishlist you had,
about the things, you’ve been longing to share.
Every feeling that you hid behind “I’m fine”
and every emotion you couldn’t show.
Talk about your struggles, sacrifices, and sins,
your losses and wins and all that you are.
Let’s talk about the bleak days that didn’t last.
Let’s talk without judging each other,
what it took to be where you are.
Tell me about the darkness, tell me about the light
Tell me about your favorite song and book;
Tell me about the time you stayed up all night.
Tell me about the first time you believed in love.
Tell me about the memories you tend to forget
l cannot promise to heal you but
I want to listen you with all my heart because
I understand the pain of being unheard.
I understand the pain of being ignored.
Drop a text, maybe if you can tell your story 🙂
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